okay so breakfast today made me sick
or something yesterday
i can't tell

hopefully, it won't continue into tomorrow
because it's bad enough feeling crappy for one day
but it hasn't been so bad

i stole my sister's vcr
this because my sister's tv is right outside my room
and i was going out there to watch my movies
(i'll get to them later)
only to find that by and large, her tv does not work
i mean, it does, but the ratio of times you have to hit it
to the length of time you get to watch clear picture
isn't what it should be

so anyway, i bought the 3 tenchi movies today
(this is the later i was talking about)

oh my god...

I, and i'm being entirely serious here
CANNOT RECOMMEND THEM MORE HIGHLY
THAN I ALREADY DO!! IT'S IMPOSSIBLE!!
yes, they are that good.

i've asked bob scott what to get as far as anime goes
in case i find myself at the mall again tomorrow
i'm glad that for once, i've got something to recommend to him
not that i need to, he's as big a tenchi fan as i am
but he's only got one of the movies
and he hasn't watched it yet

oh man...

so good.

i've got a cell phone now.
got it a couple days ago.
didn't expect to ever have one
mostly because it's not my style
but once you personalize things about it
it sorta becomes your style

i changed my banner on it to read
"DON'T PANIC!"
you know, cause it's a douglas adams reference
and it seemed kind of appropriate

anyway, i'm gonna go sleep now.
it's about that time.
tomorrow, i watch princess mononoke again.
whether it be after
i've watched the new bits o' anime i've gotten
(i shall have to check my mail before i go
having asked bob's advice on the matter
and i haven't gotten a reply just yet)
or if i've gotten none, and i'm just seizing the opportunity...

i'm going to call beth someday soon
see if she'd like to borrow it next time the gang's together
cause i think she might like it
i likes spreading the anime all around, i do!

and more people should do the same.

good night.

so i had to mow the lawn today
hated it
had to wake up earlier to do it too
so i got all tired this afternoon
and missed most of tenchi cause i was asleep
dammit!
the thing is, i drank coffee
the kind my grandparents make, cause i figure it's coffee, it'll help
and why not try it anyway
not strong enough and may have even made me more tired
how damn odd

going to improv with lauren tonight
hope i don't fall asleep
she'll call me later

going to the mall tomorrow
i think i'll try to pick up some lovely anime

i'm going to go watch tv now
i'm missing outlaw star, and that's another show i really like.

i've decided that the song should go on hold
until such time as i can make it not tiringly long

anyway, at least you got to see what a damn stickler i am for accuracy
at least in cases like that, or spelling someone's name
and various other things that can be found idiosyncratic

i really wanna watch princess mononoke, though
just kinda have that feeling
i'd really like to watch some good anime right now
princess mononoke specifically
but since the working vcr isn't in my room, i can't watch it
cause i don't wanna wake up my sister
and she'd be able to hear it, cause her room is right next to where the working vcr is
damn my non-working vcr!

beth liked the stuff i got her
that was awesome
i got her digimon rings and the clow cards
made a new baby chicken comic for her card, too

it was neat, cause phil got her the digimon movie
so it was like there was a theme
sarah got her a new edition of alice in wonderland
where all the illustrations are photographs of cut-outs of the originals
you'd have to see it to really get what it's like, it's really cool

we went to see the monkees.
if it hadn't been a free show, it would have been so much better.
i will explain-
the park/field thing was more than packed, and people just kept coming
there was no "doors open" time so i'm sure the people in the front had
camped there overnight or something
(there were so many people with tents around, that this is plausible)
having to spend money to get in would have gotten rid of at least half
then we would have been closer to the stage
which we're guessing was one of the factors of the show's crappiness

after being at two car lots, i've decided that i don't like car lots.
and if there's one thing i don't like more than car lots, it's car salesmen.
i'm pretty sure it wasn't the guy himself from the honda place i went to a while ago
(the one where my sister got her car, or where my parents got it)
otherwise, i'm sure we wouldn't have been there
they make me feel like
"this guy wants to sell me a car and he wants me to decide NOW!"
and now that i look at it written down, the "NOW" part looks a lot like a
so-i-don't-have-time-to-think-about-it sort of thing
eventhough the guy told me many times to take my time
and various things of that nature, meant to put me more at ease
perhaps i'm too cynical
perhaps, though, i'm right

i don't even have a job yet, what the fuck am i doing even looking at cars?!
that's probably somewhat the root of the whole thing
cause really- what the fuck is the point?! i don't get it!
i'm not ready to buy a car yet, i don't have a damn dime!
why am i looking?!
why?!

it doesn't make a damn lick of sense.

*sigh*

none of this was my idea, i said nothing

i'm frustrated and lonely
i miss girls
i'm sure it's not mutual, though

and i don't see why i should have to put up with salemen
even one goddamn second before i absolutely have to

i should learn to drive stick on a test drive
i don't think they'd let me, but i don't know if they'd have much choice
i'd be laughing one hell of a lot

my monitor keeps losing the picture
as though randomly shutting off
but not really
cause you have to shut it off, and put it back on to fix it
it's doing it an awful lot
which means i hate it and want to throw it against the wall.
i was ready to puch it earlier, but i've cooled down a bit
you know, not talking about the whole car situation

i want to like driving and know how to get to as many places as my friends do
but i just can't seem to get a break where that's involved
or where girls are involved
among other things that i probably complain about on here constantly
ah, the incessant din of my whining, what would you do without it?
like grand and mellifluous fucking music to your eager, loving ears.

well, i'm gonna go try to sleep
it's not worth bein awake anymore
not that it really was to begin with
i'm just really frustrated and somewhat angry about things now
and i need to sleep it off

here's to that, then.
good night.