how bout that last post, huh?
ya like it?
i know i did, pi is an interesting number
it's so huge, long and never ends ever (as far as we know)
and yet, if you were to round it, you'd end up with 3 and that's it
i can't do math at all
but some of this stuff is pretty fascinating

anyway, big listee chat a couple days ago
really fun and great
i miss them
jim gave me advice on songwriting
that, while i've gotten it before
it never sank in til now
and that it to just do it
if it's crap, it still needs to be written
cause practice is the only way to get good

started writing a song while talking to him
it's about how working at sears sucks
write whatcha know, and all that, i guess
i'm thinking of going to a nearby thai restaurant
because things there cost two bucks
and the food is tasty

not that i should really be spending money
i've got all of six bucks
not including the 37 in the bank
but i get paid friday
and i don't remember if lauren gets paid this week
but maybe
so i can possibly afford $4 to eat there
hope i'm not wrong or anything
but then again, i'm gonna think about it
and i might just decide to go eat at my parents' house
so maybe that'll happen instead

read quite a bit of "grace" today
which is a story in dubliners
i should be halfway through the story by now
or more, depending, i haven't checked
however, it does seem like rather a long one
so maybe not

and i'm making progress in zelda
plus, i sold $797 last night at work
so things are looking ok

alright, i don't know when the place closes
so i should go check soon.
later everybody.

and now...
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:)

later people.

i'm sorry
i kinda over reacted
i mean, of course it was just a bunch of stupid kids
and not some kind of harrassment
but i mean, i've dealt with that before
some kid used to call my parents' house
this was like, tenth grade
they still get a lot of calls
where there's noone on the other end
i doubt it's him
unless he's the biggest loser ever
but then, who would it be?
i mean, it's more than likely just a crappy phone
it is really old by now, after all

interesting thing though
as i typed the last post, it got darker out
i go outside
there's a thunderstorm brewing
a car alarm is going off
and i just had to laugh, you know?

maybe now i won't have to wash the car
that'd be good
i don't feel like doing it, really
it seems kinda blah
a blah thing to do

but i would like to eat
so i'll probably go do that now
like i said i was gonna
alright then, off i go
later people.

so maybe not a gamecube this month
but, i did get some nice dvd's-
fear and loathing
akira
labyrinth
all good and fine movies
and lauren really likes labyrinth
so i figured it'd be a good purchase

so i get in lauren's car today
as it is the car i always end up using
dammit
and i find that someone has thrown eggs at it
probably some stupid kids
of course, i was more upset about it than lauren
because lauren's never dealt with this shit before
to her there's no possibility of it being intentionally aimed at us
but since i dealt with shit like that all my life
i tend to get a little upset
and want to rip the throat out of whoever did it

you can only be powerless for so long
or silent
or fall prey to idiots of the lowest caliber
and i left that all behind
when i stepped out of high school
and into adulthood

which means dan ain't taking it anymore
people have walked all over me
and pushed me around for half of my life
(and lauren has somehow managed to think
that this is all my fault for not stopping them
i tried a couple times and lost
so that's it for that
and how dare she say that it's my fault
fuck that crap
i shouldn't have to become some meaty stick of beef
to beat people up because they picked on me
it shouldn't have happened in the first place)

lauren- "nobody's ever pushed you"

yeah. right.

just because mommy tossed you into a few walls
doesn't mean you're the only one who's ever been through anything
and then lauren pushes my buttons herself
and it's not like i'm gonna do anything to her
so again, i am powerless
and if i argue, she calls me a child
and if i don't it's just the same old shit

then she wonders why
i go insane and wanna choke
anyone who does anything to me
nameless, faceless bastards
which makes it worse

and when she reads this, i'll probably end up hearing some stupid bull about never being pushed and be called a childish child sort of person and blah blah blah laurentalking and basic lack of any respect for me which she will also flat out deny

i don't get to stand up to your bitch mom
(as you said, the only way to get her respect,
which means i'll be taking shit from her as long as i live)
and i don't get to stand up to the seemingly non-existant people who egged your car
i pretty much have to sit here and take it from any jerk giving it
and i don't think that's right
that's not helping me any
as you so love to think you are with your pushing
making me a mature adult, huh?
life as an adult will do that
i don't need pushing
i was perfectly able to take shit from people before you
i took it well, and hardly got mad
now i wanna beat and torture
and if i mention wanting to stand up for myself
you tell me not to
and say it would be childish
and blah blah dan's an idiot again
watch me defeat dan
blah blah blah, i'm lauren

i'm just sick of it
sick of being fed bullshit by everyone
sick of taking crap from idiots
sick of everyone always winning
and me always losing

i'm just done with it

i think i'm gonna go eat.
later.