lots of pokemon news.
the egg from the two jigglypuffs hatched
it's an igglybuff, a girl one
i'm doing the same with two gengars now
tricky thing that
cause i traded the haunter from my yellow game
and they evolve right away
so then they weren't the same pokemon
and therefore, i guess, wouldn't mate
but then i traded haunter from crystal for the haunter from gold
and back again (since the one from gold is a male)
and now they are both gengars
and now both gengars in the daycare place are gengars
and i think they're gonna do a bit of poke-gettin-it-on
and give me an egg
cause i know there's a new ghost pokemon
and with a lot of them, this is how you get them
so i'm hoping that is the case for this one too

in other news, i'm still sick
and it's yucky
my nose is acting better than it was
but now my throat hurts again
it had gone away or at least down before
ugh
ugh ugh ugh

and in my sickness, i can only guess that most news
for the duration of my sickness
will be either poke-news or me bitching about bein sick
though there's always the chance of other news popping up
i certianly wouldn't exclude it
i mean, i *could* have news

anyway, i hope that this gets sikness out of the way for this month
so i can be free and easy for halloween and phil and ian's party
which isn't so much in october, but right after october
but you get the point
no want sickies for party!

i'm quite tired for 9:45pm
i've been waking up the past few days though
so that could explain it
plus, as previously stated
over and over again
i'm sick
so that prolly has something to do with it

i'm gonna go to bed early tonight, i think
no! can't!
must watch adult swim!
catch what i didn't see last time!
yes! must!
okay then, after that, it's bed for me.

oh, the point of mentioning my dad in the last blog
was to say that he put a different monitor on the computer
and that i don't think it's as good as the other one
except that it doesn't randomly lose picture

i think i forgot to mention that.
and that my throat is sore
and i haven't been able to sing like usual lately
which i don't like.
but i think it'll get better.

i have to go blow my nose.
and watch olie.
(this written right after the last, by the way).

hey.
feel not so good today.
all of a sudden, runny nose.
and oogity stomach.
ugh.

dad was cleaning yesterday
and being bitchy
cause he woke me up for lunch
and i was half asleep sitting on my couch
like that could be helped when i didn't even get to sleep til 5am
woke me up again today
i had to go apply for a new social security card
so that's done
went out for breakfast
oogy oogy oogness in the belly.

last night went out with lauren
she got her tongue pierced
i'm considering
but not too seriously
like, i nearly just did it while we were there
and was thinking maybe
then again, i donno if that was just
the money in my pocket talking
shouting "SPEND ME!"

well, enough of this.
i gotsa hurry, so i can catch
the last few minutes of olie.
i'll prolly come back and blog again later.

hair keeps coming out nicely.
i think it has something to do with the length
like, it gets long enough, and all of a sudden
it is able to do just what i'm looking for it to do
it's really neat, actually
my hair is mysterious
but slowly, i'm figuring out what to do with it

wow, i was really down yesterday
part of the whole not having a job anymore thing
like regressing, kind of
"back to *that* again"
as if i was spectacularly wanted by anyone
while i was still working, right?
but hey, i'll get another job, and go to school
and eventually some girl will appreciate
whatever it is that i've got going on
or will have at the time
though i shouldn't imagine that it'd be much different
from what i have going on now

oh, but i sure will be able to play the accordion
cause i feel like lessons are coming soon
and maybe then songwriting will pick up
but that'd be just for fun
i wouldn't dream of trying to make money at it
cause let's face it, that wouldn't happen ever ever ever
or so i am resigned to thinking

anyway, i'd have better luck trying
to get my comics to make money on the web
much more conceivable, i think
if i can get some good word of mouth going
i think that maybe i could move a bit of merchandise
if i could come up with any
which, who couldn't, right?

i keep asking "right?"
it reminds me of the weird guy from the current comic storyline
he was this bumpy-faced man who talked to me on the train
which shocked beth (understandably), but i talked to him
cause it's nt like you can just ignore the guy
he's making friendly conversation
there's not enough of that as it is
so you don't be a prick, even if you don't wanna talk to the guy

but i'm still on the one with the kids who are name-dropping poets
and they might not even make it into the comic
if i get on a roll with the tmbg/viking chase scene
but i don't think i will, though i don't know quite
what i'm going to do yet

i drew ryoko in my style
cause i really like ryoko
it's the first time i've ever tried
to convert something from anime to my style
always been the other way around
and i'm hoping to get much better at doing anime
especially if i'm gonna do a tmbg thing in all anime
man, will that be difficult
oh yes indeed

i should get to bed now, so as not to
end up going to bed at 5am like the past few nights
and might i just state that davey rocks
cause that's who i'm usually up talking to that late
and it's good

speaking of talking to people
talked to other dan today
said something he really liked
and that was-
"yeah, we did some bombing. then we dropped some presents."
he heard a list of the things the us gave to afghanistan
and what he told me goes as follows-
crackers
strawberry jam
potato vinaigrette
-i don't know about you
but i don't think potato vinaigrette sounds too good.

well, it's nearly 4am now, i should get to bed
so i'll maybe end up not going to bed at 5am
like i have the past few days
and despite how awesome that may be in certain circumstances
like, if you were at a party or something all night
and you had a grand old time
that might be pretty cool
but doing it every day
for no purpose whatsoever
just doesn't feel that cool
in fact, i'd say waking up in the late afternoon the past few days
has sucked ass... lots of ass

which is a really funny phrase to hear
in a blog where you also hear such phrases
and big words as i am wont to use

there was something i forgot
but i remember what it is now
it is that i'm playing around in pokemon crystal
i went to the site and found out that
you can leave 2 pokemon with the pokemong daycare people
and if they are same type, different sex
they might breed
and then you'll get an egg
which is how you get pichu and such others
which is why i need to find a male jigglypuff
and ooh hey, i traded a clefairy fromyellow to crystal today
and zapdos, too
i'm doing a lot of trading with myself

i don't know if i mentioned this
and i probably didn't
but i caught mewtwo
just where the secret said
it's in a cave just outside of cerulean city
you surf to it, work your way through it
and at the end is good ol mewtwo
i caught it and traded it to both gold and crystal
i've only traded zapdos to crystal
but i think i'll end up sending it to gold and back

so anyway, that's all from me for now
it's bed time, kiddies
good night.

missed adult swim entirely today
no cowboy bebop for me
i think i can catch the episodes shown today on thursday
which is good, cause i really like that show

remember when i used to be such a romantic?
whatever happened to that?
i donno
it's feeling kinda destroyed right now

i've nothing to offer anyone
no job anymore
no schooling anymore
no rugged manliness to bludgeon the gals with
(oozing so much testosterone that one could drown
and that sort of thing)

of course, by now it's been so long
i'm not sure i know how to have a girlfriend anymore
i know it must be rattling around in there somewhere
i'm sure it'd come out if someone wanted it

of course nobody does
and don't you dare try to give me some kind of
"if i didn't have a boyfriend, i'd..." or
"statistically, since there are many more
women than men, odds are that at least one of them..."
or any of that sort of thing
because nice as it is that you'd like to make me feel better
and i appreciate it
it's not really gonna do too much
i'll still end up with nobody

i don't know why i don't just give up
couldn't honestly spout reasons
i'm sure i could make some up
but let's face it
i'm jsut in no position to do anything
i'm pathetic and stupid and awful
and that (SURPRISE!) doesn't sell

and you know
i can see potential in myself
and i'm sure others have a better picture of it than me
cause of course, i'm very much not looking at that
as far as the whole thing goes, i'm only giving credit where it's due
cause i've made some neat art, and done some neat stuff
and that deserves it's share of kudos
the problem is that the potential
isn't going kinetic
and as such is just sitting there
which drives me insane

of course, hanging with lauren never helped anything
because lauren's moved out with a job
(though i wouldn't want her job
nor her working hours)
and she's about as unromantic as they come
and the fact that she's the only friend i usually ever get to hang with
does even less for that side of me
so then i feel just a little worse than before
(so screw you, lauren)

i wanna be in school
i wanna make some money
i want more than either of those
to still have time to make art
while doing them both

i don't have health insurance
i need new contacts
i need new glasses
so my eyes are probably suffering
and i donno that i can go to the dentist either
and these things are important
you don't have teeth, you gotta eat mush
and i don't wanna eat mush all the time
and if you can't see, you can't
well, you can't see!
and that's not the way i want to live
i need my eyes
i need my mind
and my heart

so why are all of them failing on me?

well, i don't really feel like being awake anymore
and even if i do end up not going to bed
i'll at least be watching some amusing cartoons
so i'll come to the light thing
the one that says something positive
and lightens things up just a little
as i rather like doing-

but you know what?
i did like my hair today,
came out nice.