that pant stain from the last blog
was less a stain and more an
"oh, something has dried on my pants"
sort of thing

so day before yesterday i think
went out driving with lauren
cause jess is in town
and that means hanging is a must
and chris joined the party at some point
and we played truth or dare in the car
and i had to kiss chris
and then i dared lauren to kiss chris
(this all sounds, and probably is
very very chidlish)
but she was driving
so it had to wait
and lauren had added something
about kissing me
so that happened
after an hour
because we were both
acting like we were 12
which was so hilarious

so now, apparently
we make out
it's an odd feeling
more like, say, parking a car
or maybe a science experiment
than real kissing
cause of the lack of feeling
normally, there'd be passion
and full turned-on-ness
i get some of that, a little
but it's only the biological bit
none of that stuff that makes me
really like kissing
but it's amusing and hey, i get to make out
not like i don't need the practice
it's been 2 years or maybe more

i feel weird, though
not bad and not good
just weird, you know?

i'm used to love being there
when i kiss someone
and here it's not
i don't know
plus it's lauren
which brings added weirdness
but it's neither good nor bad
so i'll stick with it
so long as i don't feel wrong about it

i'm gonna go now
i've been talking to my dear friend beth
about zelda
and getting hints
and i'm so in the mood to play that right now
ocarina and majora's mask
and maybe some more old school games
it'll be, as the cure would say
just like heaven
unless i can't figure it out

ooh! before i go
i have some news
my card came in
the one for suncoast
so i can go buy movies
or could if i had money
not only that, but
my new tenchi volume 1 came in
so i should go pick it up soon

and phil's phone has been calling me
like, just at random
only twice so far
and it's not him
cause he would talk
and all i hear is background stuff
i shoulda asked beth while we were talking

my father has just now informed me that i
can no longer drive my car
because the insurance has lapsed
and he didn't know til recently
so uh, i guess if i go to the mall
i'm gonna be taking cokie's car
(cokie means my sister, nicole)

thanksgiving was alright
ate a bunch
watched a buffy marathon
lauren came over at around 10:30pm
and stayed til 3am
yes, some of that time was spent kissing
(*so* weird)
but most of it was spent watching buffy
and abusing one another as usual

i tried taping cowboy bebop upstairs
since lauren and i were watching buffy downstairs
my grandmother turned off the freakin tv!
agh!
and only after the first freakin episode!
i left a note too
stuck to the static on the tv
but i guess it fell
so now i *have* to buy it for myself
otherwise, i shall never see all the episodes
unless they start the series again
which they should
but i'm still mad about not having seen it all
the first time
which is for some odd reason important to me

ok, i think i'm gonna go now
later

just a couple quick notes
cause i have to go watch buffy
then buffy
then buffy again
(i love that it's on fx now)

the first is that
my knee
specifcally my right one
has been acting funny
like, when i go down the stairs
something's up, and i hope it goes away
i'm not really that worried

the second note is kinda funny
there's a little stain on my pants
on that very knee actually
which befuddled me, cause how'd that get there
but what's funny is
that it smells like maple syrup
and. um. i've not come into contact with
any maple syrup today
well, i must have
but i don't remember it

funny as that had potential to be
i know its probably just my grandfather
who constantly eats waffles
having spilled some maple syrup
somewhere in the kitchen
and i stuck my leg on that somewhere
bah

anyway, i'm going now
later

eyes are still being nice.
feeling better day by day.

i've just been doing
a little comic cleaning
still on the first one
it's a long process, ya see
kinda relaxing, but only kinda
and that's when you don't mess up
and have to start something over again
but from what i can tell
they're going to look really good
it'll be worth it

so lauren (predictably) hated the buffy musical
which i can only understand cause i know her
because i thought it was funny
if nothing else
lauren only likes buffy cause of spike anyway
which i remind her of every once in a while

i've set myself for reading today
i have dubliners nearby
so i'll be more prone to grab it and read
instead of be too lazy
to walk across my room to get it

i'm gonna go
it's olie watching time
later

i've decided how i'm going to go about
cleaning up the comics
i did some tinkering the other night
and found something that worked

also, a vast update for my site is under way
only a couple little things left
one is adding comics
they apparently take a year to upload
and i don't enjoy that
ah well, it needs doing
and i'm gonna have to deal with it eventually
and anyway, i'm not putting a whole lot up
not until i get on keenspace

the night i was doing the update
was the night i said i'd hang with chris
and so i did
and it was fun
as i hadn't expected
cause of my always needing a break
after hanging with him and lauren
but it'd been a while anyway

that night, drank 3 energy drinks in a row
no damage taken from that
smoked too much, though
that, and not having solution to
soak my contacts in
led to searing eye pain yesterday
threw that pair away after two rounds of that
the new pair today is being nice

have to take my grandfather out to eat today
he's paying, and the trip to the store
the other day wasn't so bad
so i'm guessing it'll be ok
not that i'm guaranteed a good time
but hopefully, it'll be alright
the guy can be a pain
and what am i supposed to do about it
what with all the respect for elders thing
or is it just a be nice to old people kind of thing?
that's why i practice avoidance at most every turn
ah well, no matter

missed all but a couple minutes of cowboy bebop last night
the second episode of the two, that is
fell asleep, not that i hadn't been asleep all day
helped get away from the horrible horrible burning in my eyes
i'll have to catch it on thursday
maybe tape it
that is, if lauren moves her ass
and watches the taped buffy episodes with me
she'd better hurry, another one is coming up
being monday and all
and buffy being on tuesday

i think that's all
not really a whole lot to tell
i'm hoping this isn't a headache i feel coming on
though let's face it, it is
and anyway, i can just go take some aspirin
so i guess that's ok

i'm gonna go do that, and watch dark shadows
later