life's a bit more normal
lauren and i had sex this morning
moodiness half-subsided
i say half because i don't sense that it's gone
anyway, it had cause to
the pregnancy test said no
(oh yeah, i failed to mention before
but uh, we didn't know if she was pregnant or not)
some relief from that, anyway
re-test in a week if she doesn't start bleeding

ate mexican food yesterday
went out with chris and his parents for his birfday
good stuff, says i
then chris and i went to a smoke shop he wanted me to see
and i bought a pack of red spirits
(american spirits that is, in a red box-
they're organic or something)
rather smooth, i think
more expensive, surely
like 6 bucks
ah well, you can't find them anywhere
so it's not so bad
not like i'm gonna get them all the time

jeez, such a bad habit
glad i can actually quit
i'm still at that stage where it wouldn't be so hard
it's a big stage for me, i think

i've been feeling like i could and should write something
but i haven't had time to
not that i probably would have ended up with anything anyway
but man, i hope i get to do something soon
i'd love to get going on that

i should at least try
me and chris bought camping supplies last night
cause he's going with whitney and some others
winter camping man
i wouldn't do it, cause i value my extremities
but hey, he found a nice heater
flameless
puts out really good heat too

i took a look (briefly) at game cube
mmmm game cube
so many really cool things to buy
so little money
actually, i really feel like spending some just now
though that would be a horrible idea
i need to pour more info into my resume
and activate it
i can think of things to put
i just don't like putting them
cause they sound so dumb
and i'm not good at selling myself
you know?

especially as far as jobs go, cause
i have very few useful skills to speak of
and the one's i've got are hard to make money from

funny comics can't get into the papers anymore
just the bland crap that they've stuck with for years
and are getting blander by the moment
i won't even mention writing
practically impossible to get anything
as i have come to understand it
beside the fact that i don't write as much as i used to
though i'm sure i could do assignments if i had to
i don't know

i think i'm gonna go eat
take my mind off whatever the hell's on it
oh yeah, what a huge nothing i've got going
go me, way to fail at life! yippee!

hope i write something
(speaking of writing, i've been thinking of
sending a mail in the direction of beth
cause i haven't heard from the gang in a long while
in short, it'd be nice)
catch you later everyone