completely bloody forgot
and it's part of what i wanted to blog for in the first place
my dear friend phil, and my other friend ian
are throwing a halloween party
beth told me about it
and will keep me informed
insofar as she is informed
which is really nice of her
it's sometime shortly after halloween
which is fine with me
(cause why wouldn't it be?)
and i donno what i'm going as
(COSTUME PARTY! YAY!)
(i'm thinking girl)
(that is to say pwiddy pwincess)
(or goth skank)
(what's with all the stinkin parentheticals, eh?)
but i'll figure it out, and no matter what
it's gonna be good
cause i gets to hang with my friends
and that's never a bad thing

but i'll tell you what is a bad thing
my hand itches
my left hand
like it's got poison ivy or some such thing
the thing is, it doesn't bother me half the time
mostly in the hot sun
as has been shining on me at work
but now it's being relatively nice to me
earlier i scratched it til it was all red and a little puffy
i know, ew, huh?
i donno what's going on
but i hope it stops going on
and i'm definitely showering sometime tonight
and definitely washing all the clothes i've worn to work
and putting some sorta anti-itch stuff on my hand

there was something else that was bad
but i don't remember what
which is bad in itself
but the thing i don't remember wasn't so bad
else i think it'd remember it
it was probably the fact that i forgot to post about the party
but maybe it wasn't

eventually i will finish dubliners.
i'm reading each one 3 times
i donno if i mentioned this
the first time, i read it with all the footnotes
the second time is like a day after the first
so it's had a little time to sink in
and this time, i'll try not to use the footnotes
kinda to see if i remember what they mean
and kinda to see if knowing what's in them already
will provide me with a different view the second time around
and then the third time
that'll be after i've read them all
and then i'll read the entire book again
just to see how all the stories fit together
it's silly, i know
but each time, the reading goes faster
so it shouldn't take all *that* long
and anyway, this kinda strikes me as the sort of thing
that one *should* be doing when reading joyce
seeing it from different angles each time
drawing little different things from it
and all that sort of thing

anyway, i'm done again

well, s'friday
and being as such
my week of work
has come to an end

got paid $374
which i like
not only because it is a lot of money
but because it's got the whole
-3+7=4, looka me, i'm math thing going on
and i find that neat
i don't know why
cause i dislike math greatly
don't really get some of it, either
and the vast majority of algebra is useless
unless you're a math teacher
but it's an interesting coincedence
like if you were adding, and you got
12,345 or something like that

man, i'm a dork.

speaking of my dorkiness, i think my dad
is looking into accordion lessons for me
actually, he mentioned a polka band
and that perhaps they would have some idea
where to find lessons and stuff
oh, this polka band is playing the autumnfest by the way
which is why it came up

and autumnfest, for those who don't know
is a festival of sorts that takes place in autumn
hence the name, in woonsocket
which is right next to cumberland
which is where i live

i'm going to sleep late tomorrow
because i'll be able to
and i think i'll try to do a comic
which i haven't in a while

i've gotten all my pokemon games to the pokemon league
hooray for me, eh?
now, to figure out what's what as far as catching mewtwo
and the legendary birds
and the other ancienty sorts of pokemon
in gold and crystal
i'm guessing you beat the elite 4
and then you can go to mt. silver
where they say all the snazzy pokemon live
and that's what i plan to do

but for now, i caught a rhyhorn
in pokemon crystal
at work today
it's funny cause i wanted to try doing that in gold
but i forgot to or something
i think what happened was someone showed up
and i had to leave it
and i forgot that it wasn't a trainer battle
boo on that, but yay for crystal
where i have 72 pokemon now!

i'm gettin tired.
but i figure i don't hafta wake up tomorrow
so it doesn't matter if i go to bed right away or not
i'll find another job sometime
having money is nice
not that i've spent a cent of it
the only thing i might keep in my pocket is the $74
the rest goes in the bank for ireland
i have to keep that in mind, and not spend all my money
i so rarely have so much of it, that it's kinda hard not to
cause it's there, and it wasn't before
and now i could get stuff that i couldn't even think of before
but i'm ot going to, cause i know i shouldn't

so yes, eventually it'll be job time for me
but for at least a little bit
it's get some nice sleep time

well, i'm done.
by the way, you should go to pokemon.com
and check out the new pokedex
it's awesome
i needed to check how to spell rhyhorn, ya see

that's all from me for now
later

tuesday, i was destroyed by my job
which is to say
my stomach was reeling from the jerky sleep schedule
and a cup of coffee being my only meal for most of the day
still is
i got out yesterday afternoon
and when i went out to eat with my family
i was trying to recall my breakfasts over the past few days
i came up with-
2 cups of coffee one day
1 the next
an actual breakfast the next, gotten at a restaurant after work
-so, i was confused, because i was dead sure they were all different days, but i'd only been working two days at that point. so, here's what actually happened-
2 cups of coffee monday
a cup of coffee tuesday, and after work in the morning, my dad and me went to eat
-surely, you must see what i'm getting at here. my brain was so addled with non-sleep, and the feeling of shift's end meaning the end of the day's work that i was entirely messed up, and things were going funny.
it feels like i've been working a week already. i'm sure that it wouldn't if my 6 hours were all together, because then there'd be something definite there, it'd be- wake up, work, go home- and that's it.
now, it's- wake up, work, go home, sleep-or-not-but-probably, wake up, work, go home
-but today was better, i was more awake, and it was warmer out in the morning. i didn't even play any video games on my gameboy today. and i ate 2 donuts and drank 1 coffee, which i'm sure helped (it's funny, i've been trying to time my coffee-drinking, so as to not need to leave the gate to go to the bathroom at least until 9, so that someone else will be there. worked well today, didn't have to go at all. then again, i haven't gone back yet today, so i really shoudn't talk about how good a day it was until the other shift is over.
man, i'm so glad it's wednesday, only 2 more days of this.
and that sounds so stupid, cause it's an easy job
but people make excuses not to park on the street
and my stomach has been killing me
and my head's been messed up
and i've not been able to do anything in the past few days
cause i've been way too tired
i think i'm starting to get used to it
but by the time i'm fully there, it'll be over
and i don't wanna complain about the job
cause it's really easy, and i'd deserve to be hit if i did
but the side-effects of it are kicking my ass

anyway, there are chipmunks that i get to watch
and birdies, too, but they're behind me
i call one of them chippy
i can't tell them apart, so i just
give the name to whichever one i see first
if they both come out, which happened yesterday
but not today, only chippy came out

this is all very uninteresting, i'm sure
but i'm really tired, and there isn't a lot to say
i've done nothing but work, eat, and fall asleep since monday
so any hijinks with lauren
interesting things on tv
and basically anything else that i have grown accustomed to
have been non-existant
(excluding the premier of buffy, which i think beth taped for me
which is ok, cause i missed little bits of it flipping between that
and the john lennon thing last night, and i will get to see those little bits
and get together with at least parts of the gang to do so)
i've not had time to write or draw
or get any amount of sleep that was actually useful
or think of a whole lot of anything
or shower
(well, i showered every day so far
but it's been spiky picking times to do so
cause sleep's important
and i'm not gonna shower before work
cause i neither have time
nor any desire to not wash work off until the next day)

i think this is officially the dullest post to this blog i've ever made
like, there's really nothing of interest to anyone in here
wow...

anyway, so i've had a craving for girl
you know, like usual
except now, it's really more pronounced
maybe cause i'm getting out more now
eventhough i see no girls anywhere at work
it's still being around people
or maybe being tired and muddled is just
bringing out a more base, eatsleepmate animal sort of thing
but i don't really think it's that, though

i'm gonna go
i'm tired and uninteresting
and i need to go use some hair gel
because i look a mess just now
and i don't want to

i've got a cut on the bridge of my nose
which isn't that bad, but the band-aid isn't too comfortable
you know?

anyway, i got it when lauren threw a battery at me
she meant to hit my foot
but wasn't actually *looking*
you know, to do such a thing as aim for my foot
so as not to hit me in the face
such as she did
but it's really nothing
and i'm not bothered that much, really
not like it's broken or anything

we went driving, and ended up going to her apartment
and al was home already
and then there was a whole part about antigone
the play, that is
and lauren was all-
"it's all about feminism, and a buncha other stuff blah blah blah"
and then i wrote on a piece of paper-
"lauren's interpretation is not THE interpretation!"
and drew lauren saying-
"everything is about feminism!"
and myself replying-
"no it's not, what the hell is wrong with you?
granted, some things are about feminism, but not all, certainly"
and her saying-
"no! everything! logic has no place here, nor does reason!"
because lauren is grandly stubborn, and in that, ignores the fact that
not everyone sees things her way
and probably a lot of related facts that are plain and not to be ignored

so then we got into a conversation about how she's all trying to exact revenge
on men
for all things past and present that have ever been bad to women
or something of that sort, at least that's how it seemed
and i said-
"yeah, so you're this avatar of justice on behalf of women,
eventhough most of them would hate you?"
the them hating her part was more because i don't think that many women
would choose lauren as an avatar of justice on their behalf
i was joking, but still it was a stab at her logic
which is seriously flawed
at least in this case
i'll put it this way-
remember the feminist criminal from the powerpuff girls?
that's lauren's way of thinking here.

plus, i find (and excuse this) that women talking about feminism
is one of the dreariest, droningest things to hear
even when i agree with what is being said
which is most of the time
of course, with anything, there are projects being taken on
that are dumb, pointless, or beating-a-dead-horse-ish
and i agree with none of that

anyway, the guy who i'm about to work for
for a week as i have just learned
is coming to pick me up
though i start tomorrow
and show me what i need to do
and, again, as i've just found out
i'll be paid $17 instead of $15
i guess i shouldn't be bothered by either bit of news
and i'm not by the second
but the first means less money
(though it does mean more free time
which i've had an overabundance of
but such as it is, i can go to shows, and take accordion lessons
if i can get that started).

ok, so it's after. way after.
like, 9pm after
and i still haven't slept
i finally got my contacts out
my eyes hurt
and i don't think it's actualy possible to catch mewtwo
without some sort of code or something
which isn't to say that i won't try anyway.
which of course i will
tomorrow at work.
not a whole lot else to do.

i shouldn't drink so much coffee tomorrow, though
cause i had to pee twice
and i'm sure that me leaving the gate
wouldn't make anyone happy.
that's ok, i'm not so fond of port-o-potties anyway.

i took the long way home today.
see, cause i took my dad's car from the parking lot
i was supposed to take the car
i didn't steal it or anything
so then i try to find my way home
and i get there
just way out of the way that i had intended
i don't know how to get to work or back
wel, at least not well
which ain't so bad if i'm leaving
but if i'm coming in, it's a catastrophe
cause i would be monumentally late
every damn day

tomorrow, i think we're going to pick up some paint
so's i can paint my room
and then i wanna get new rugs
you know, to match and all.

agh! mz. rabbit was just on and i missed her completely!
damn not having my contacts in, typing in here, and talking to lauren
all at the same time!
ah well, i shall have further opportunity someday.

anyway, i feel like publishing this thing and going to bed
(besides which, my sister needs the computer)
so good night everybody!